lissalysikan: (elf contemplating)
In my attempts to write more I keep finding myself writing in sentences that, while proper grammar, spelling, topic, etc, are difficult for people of more standard education (or even thinking patterns). It's really obvious when I try to work on older unfinished works - even I have to look thrice to comprehend them, and I am the cause!
I'm trying a new tactic. Write as much as I have the inspiration for, to get the story going (or adding to an unfinished one that already exists). Once my brain starts going "erm, there are things that need more planning and I can't make words for an incomplete idea" I'm stopping (past method was to try to force more - doesn't work) and going to some other story and reading it. I always find tons of writing that is the story, but is not in a manner that regular people find easy (or even comprehensible). I can focus on the language constructs without worrying of the story ideas since they are already there and rewrite them in structures that people who do regular words can make sense of.
Not that they can't with my first versions, just that it takes more work than most people are willing to put into reading unfinished stories by unknown authors. I don't blame them - when I see a poorly translated story from a non-English author I have to decide if I am willing to put effort into deciphering the translation or find something else to read. To avoid putting readers into that dilemma I am trying to write in ways that are more common and, thus, easier to parse.

Rereading this tells me I should do that same process here. Except it's 6:45 am and I have not napped in over eight hours, so it will have to wait until (if?) I have the energy to revisit this post and write in a less wordy, convoluted way.

This has been another post from the society of randomly babbling faeries, without authorization or approval. (We're faeries, we don't follow rules, we just babble at random and hope someone likes trying to figure out what we were trying to say.)
lissalysikan: (elf contemplating)
This is one I really like a beginning, but it's hard a keep doing. I'd like to do a whole story in the style of the first few paragraphs - but each retry ends up going the way this one does. Not sure how to fix it. Maybe it's a thinking style I slips into and just have to work around by going slow and redoing paragraphs when I see is going this way. (is not erotica)

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lissalysikan: (elf contemplating)
This is one of the stories I worked on to try to figure out what I was doing wrong. No erotica! (I know lots of people do not like that in stories, but, usually, it just happens - this time it didn't :) ).
It needs work, but I think I like it so far. I used a bit more description rather than just dialog and action. There are a few places that do have a bit of 'um, that sort of contradicts an earlier statement' that need cleanup. BUT! I feel like I am getting back to writing the stories I want to.

Read more... )

It needs work on transitions between people and scenes, maybe a little more descriptions. I tried to introduce characters better - that might need some work, but it's better than recent works that I re-read and had to trash.

Anyway - I think I'm making progress on recovering my writing.

edit: contrary to statements made in last post, this story might actually continue, and will continue to not have erotica since it wouldn't fit
lissalysikan: Self Portrait Of A Faerie (Default)
I have been working on a bunch of tiny stories to try to figure out what I was doing when I was writing before and why the newer stuff was, erm, .. yeah, shit. I hate being honest with myself - it's like giving myself injections - it's one of the things I am REALLY glad I have caretakers for.
ANYWAY.
I didn't figure out why or what I have been doing wrong lately with the writing, but after reading a bunch of old stuff and starting new things after reading the old I believe (with crossed fingers) I have got a grasp on what I want to and how to do it.
I have a couple of new story starts that feel better. I'm going to touch up one and post it (soon, for various definitions of soon). It's not a whole story, but even rereading the parts I did a couple of weeks ago I don't cringe, so it's worth the risk of plopping them out and seeing if I cringe when seeing them in public.
Fair warning - there is hints of erotica. The erotica is NOT the main point, which is one of the issues I have had with the stories that maked me go bleah for a long time. I like writing erotica, but I love fantasy more and I want to go toward that more.
Honestly - there will always be some erotica in everything I write. There are asexual people, I have read, but I'm not one and I can't imagine what it would be like to be so. So I'm not going to try to write it. It would be an insult to those that are, since I'd get it wrong. (Yeah, I'm one of those people that thinks it is offensive to try to write about things you don't understand as if you did.)

So, it's been an update! In mostly correct US English. :)
lissalysikan: (baby's face)
After a few days of keeping anxiety and depression at bay I can think better. Reading and rewriting - several times - the start of my current "story that wants to be written", I decided I am going about it wrong. Niamh should have the elf ears, eyes, and some other minor features, and smaller than normal for an adult, she SHOULDN'T have the odd proportions or childlike appearance of me. That goes a different direction from what I want to focus on. So, starting again :).
lissalysikan: (crying elf)
I was planning to update here more often but then anxiety and depression decided I needed a be reminded that my head is not my own (my email signature is "There's Someone In My Head But It's Not Me" (is from Pink Floyd - Brain Damage) ). Didn't write much stories - not updating old ones or working on the idea I has been beating on for the last month or two. I did manage to figure out that too much of my discontent with the way the story was opening was it makes it sound like Niamh looks too childish (is based on how I looks) and so Ciaran comes across as being a pedophile type - attracted to childish looks too much. SO. Now that head is letting me think again instead of react to stupid feels that has no basis, is restarting the story and working on making it clear that Ciaran's interest is NOT in Niamh looking childish but in the oddities (long pointy ears, big eyes, etc) of her appearance and way of thinking (using me as a model I has her thinking better in computer languages than human ones, tends to be literal even when it doesn't make sense, and blathers/babbles when stressed). Not sure is succeeding at getting the feel right, but is only been a few days of being able to write a thoughts (words are hard and computers does not read ASL ... yet). Even if I trash it and start again (likely) I think is a good way to approach things.

[Anxiety tells me not to write stuff cause no one wants to read what I has to say, depression tells me the anxiety is right and I should just shut up and wallow in self pity. I know they're wrong, but when they is strong I give in for a times. Not that I has a choice.]
lissalysikan: (elf contemplating)
So. I decided a work with the story. Not "fix" what was, just use as a guide of where it has to go. In the process of thinking it I realized I didn't has a idea of the end result - where a boss guy realizes a nature of Niamh, and long term (kay, not really long) relationship that is needed. So - trying to avoid rewriting a start has come to know needs rewrite. Was thinking too much big picture and got too much minor detail that didn't actually lead there. I'm babbling, I know - just thinking through where is going.

Niamh is a fae but doesn't know it. CiarĂ¡n is not a fae but has had reason a learn of fae. Has made a 'feeling' that Niamh is, but, being a rational man in a computer field is not one to jump to conclusions (I know, unrealistic, but there are really people that don't jump to magic or religion as their first guess - really! They exist!). BUT - he does has a thinkings.

And then is the desk clerk. Was told she doesn't seem realistic cause front desk clerks don't act that bad even to odd peoples. Trust me - they do. I has been the "you look strange and talk strange so I can belittle you all I want and get out my inner whatever-shit on you because you can't tell anyone" victim lots. Boy is it fun seeing them get called out for it when someone that understands me appears. But that's a side track, since Niamh does speak. I suspect the bitchy desk clerks would treat a child-like biker with strange looks just as bad as they treat a mute with strange looks, so is thinking a keep it, just redone better. Maybe soften it so the desk clerk stays in a story as a minor pain-in-the-butt.

Writing this a tell myself what is going on since when I make a notes in the story I seem to ignore them but when I write them another place is better at remembering the issues I raised. (no one ever said I was rational, not even me).

The current temp title is "The Border" since the story is of a place where fae and regular world interconnect.

Is hard a write a story when already has the idea and it isn't just 'flowing'. Harder still without a editor what tells me of a mistakes fast.

Thank you for reading a random babblings. Not approved by the association of Random Babbling Faeries, what hasn't read it yet.
lissalysikan: (elf contemplating)
Been having this idea for a while. Has rewrited the intro many times. I think I like this intro.

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hmm - reads like an intro to erotica. It isn't. :D
lissalysikan: Self Portrait Of A Faerie (Default)
It has been a while since could write anything. Lots of brain weird stuff got in the way every time I tried.
Is back in Georgia (think I said that a while ago). Had fighting with depression, discomfort with things changing too much too often, etc. (Being autistic is not fun with a world that is constantly trying to change)

BUT - I have tried writing some more and updated "The Bard". Now I have to remember how to link it here.

Edit: I remembered.
"The Bard" - a naive teen discovering her talents as a bard (of the DnD variety).

Will see if I can keep doing it :).
lissalysikan: Self Portrait Of A Faerie (Default)
A long time ago - like 2012 - tried to write a story that was in my head for most of my life. I named it Tinky (cause that is the name of the protagonist and the story wasn't even finished enough in my head to have thing to call it). The writing was pretty bad.
Sos I put the story in a file and started practicing writing with other stories what wasn't important to me. Some of them is now important, too.
I learned more about writing and storytelling and practiced lots. Even writed erotica (there is sex even in fantasy worlds, unless the fantasy is written by a puritan).
I got stuck in each of the other stories I was writing once I got to a certain point in them - they didn't have a full story in my head and getting past that was getting harder.

SO - is going back to Tinky and working on it. The story there is more complete and I think is ready to write it.

First part is rewriting what was did before. Not changing the story, just the words. Like taking a outline and making a document.

But that is where I is at with the writings what has seemed to has ended for the last few months.

Is ready to do the original again.

Tinky is revived!

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