Lissa's Ramblings

I have been talking off & on with peoples in comments and IMs about writing better and more reliably. One of the things I realized (and peoples has said to me) is I get stuck on a part and instead of working through it I go to writing other stuff - mostly short stories that have the kernel of an idea - and leave the big story to fade unfinished.
BUT - I have unfinished bigger stories I really want to finish.
So, I said I will do a thing of NOT wandering off to do other stories and put effort back into the big ones, trying to put real effort into them again.
The one I have mentioned is "Tinky".
So, a friend has been helping me and I think I am able to do it.
So you don't has to go back a year or two to find the link - here is a live link to Tinky as I try to work on it again.

"Tinky"

Hope you like it, cause it is going to be my main focus of writing for a while.

EDIT: okay, I will probably also do shorts, but Punk will yell at me if I let them get in the way again.

In my attempts to write more I keep finding myself writing in sentences that, while proper grammar, spelling, topic, etc, are difficult for people of more standard education (or even thinking patterns). It's really obvious when I try to work on older unfinished works - even I have to look thrice to comprehend them, and I am the cause!
I'm trying a new tactic. Write as much as I have the inspiration for, to get the story going (or adding to an unfinished one that already exists). Once my brain starts going "erm, there are things that need more planning and I can't make words for an incomplete idea" I'm stopping (past method was to try to force more - doesn't work) and going to some other story and reading it. I always find tons of writing that is the story, but is not in a manner that regular people find easy (or even comprehensible). I can focus on the language constructs without worrying of the story ideas since they are already there and rewrite them in structures that people who do regular words can make sense of.
Not that they can't with my first versions, just that it takes more work than most people are willing to put into reading unfinished stories by unknown authors. I don't blame them - when I see a poorly translated story from a non-English author I have to decide if I am willing to put effort into deciphering the translation or find something else to read. To avoid putting readers into that dilemma I am trying to write in ways that are more common and, thus, easier to parse.

Rereading this tells me I should do that same process here. Except it's 6:45 am and I have not napped in over eight hours, so it will have to wait until (if?) I have the energy to revisit this post and write in a less wordy, convoluted way.

This has been another post from the society of randomly babbling faeries, without authorization or approval. (We're faeries, we don't follow rules, we just babble at random and hope someone likes trying to figure out what we were trying to say.)

So - I'm now 42. 42 years older than the docs said I would ever get to (they said I wouldn't survive being born :) ). They still say I'm about to die. I'll be back next year just to prove they are still wrong.

Yes, I am still trying to write stories and fix the ones I've written before. I still live. I still write. I still have fun.

Is not a thing. Nope. Cannot believe. Must be trolls caught non-tech peoples.
In SL and OSGrid has had peoples said not a talk at them if has Covid cause they doesn't want to catch it. In OSGrid I thinked was a joke (a thing in OSGrid is making fun of obviously stupid things, like republicans) but then saw many taked it serious - actually thinked can get a BIOLOGICAL virus from a puter!

Then goed at Secondlife (has beed there many years longer than should has but hey, is a nutcase what can't has RL social life) and much peoples there is being rational - then the republicans plop in with the 'if you communicate with a person who has covid in any way you will get it and die!'.

How do these people think disease works? That thinking of it makes you ill? Does they not give basic biology in school (was home-schooled with a emphasis on science since parents left ROI because ROI believed (at a time - no idea if is current) a thing a do with potential birth defects is kill the fetus and say God doesn't like defective peoples). Do they really teach that THINKING about a disease makes you get it? Is like the 1950s thinkings of "a girl who thinks of sex will wake up pregnant"?

Need to has laws of education. #1 BASIC FUCKING BIOLOGY. Thinking of stuffs does not and cannot convery illness or pregnancy. No. Does not matter if you is a Catholic idiot, Moronic Mormon, Stupid Scientologist, or Bubbleheaded Babtist. Thinking a thing does NOT make it happen. Period. Nope. No, your god-of-the-gaps does not apply - is not gap, biology is real (I know - eeewww), and faeries only exist wherever I happen to appear.

Boy did I mangle that ... bunch of words.

But I got it off my chest (what little bit of chest I has).

Feels less annoyed, for now. Don't worry - some republican is going to say something incredibly stupid and refer to a conspiracy theory (current one is that Trump's idiocy is faked and he's actually an intelligent man) to get me annoyed again. I is good at being annoyed, especially when is not feeling good.

Merry Christmas. If you celebrates then good wishes and happies of it! If you celebrates another thing, may you have the best of whatever it is your faith can give you! If you celebrates only as secular holiday - has a fun and safe day and enjoy as much as can! If does not celebrate things - have an F-ing good day!

Yeah - so much happy is reminds of molasses in a teaspoon. Tablespoon of molasses is too much happy for one day :D.

I hope you enjoy the season as it is in your life. Find the best, happiest stuff and hold on to it tightly.

I forgot to post this way back in october. Oh well - I suppose for most people 41st b'day is not a big deal anyway. It's only important to me since b'days are a thing I have grown up thinking as "F-You" to the doctors that have told me all my life that I am "about to die" or "should not have been born" (I know they mean my body should not have survived being born, but it feels to me as bad as it sounds to you). So anyway - belated happy birthday to me. :)

(I had to put this in here because I went to post a thing and saw that I had started the b'day thing and never sent it - so I writed it new and here it is :D ).

This is one of the stories I worked on to try to figure out what I was doing wrong. No erotica! (I know lots of people do not like that in stories, but, usually, it just happens - this time it didn't :) ).
It needs work, but I think I like it so far. I used a bit more description rather than just dialog and action. There are a few places that do have a bit of 'um, that sort of contradicts an earlier statement' that need cleanup. BUT! I feel like I am getting back to writing the stories I want to.

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It needs work on transitions between people and scenes, maybe a little more descriptions. I tried to introduce characters better - that might need some work, but it's better than recent works that I re-read and had to trash.

Anyway - I think I'm making progress on recovering my writing.

edit: contrary to statements made in last post, this story might actually continue, and will continue to not have erotica since it wouldn't fit

After a few days of keeping anxiety and depression at bay I can think better. Reading and rewriting - several times - the start of my current "story that wants to be written", I decided I am going about it wrong. Niamh should have the elf ears, eyes, and some other minor features, and smaller than normal for an adult, she SHOULDN'T have the odd proportions or childlike appearance of me. That goes a different direction from what I want to focus on. So, starting again :).

So. I decided a work with the story. Not "fix" what was, just use as a guide of where it has to go. In the process of thinking it I realized I didn't has a idea of the end result - where a boss guy realizes a nature of Niamh, and long term (kay, not really long) relationship that is needed. So - trying to avoid rewriting a start has come to know needs rewrite. Was thinking too much big picture and got too much minor detail that didn't actually lead there. I'm babbling, I know - just thinking through where is going.

Niamh is a fae but doesn't know it. Ciarán is not a fae but has had reason a learn of fae. Has made a 'feeling' that Niamh is, but, being a rational man in a computer field is not one to jump to conclusions (I know, unrealistic, but there are really people that don't jump to magic or religion as their first guess - really! They exist!). BUT - he does has a thinkings.

And then is the desk clerk. Was told she doesn't seem realistic cause front desk clerks don't act that bad even to odd peoples. Trust me - they do. I has been the "you look strange and talk strange so I can belittle you all I want and get out my inner whatever-shit on you because you can't tell anyone" victim lots. Boy is it fun seeing them get called out for it when someone that understands me appears. But that's a side track, since Niamh does speak. I suspect the bitchy desk clerks would treat a child-like biker with strange looks just as bad as they treat a mute with strange looks, so is thinking a keep it, just redone better. Maybe soften it so the desk clerk stays in a story as a minor pain-in-the-butt.

Writing this a tell myself what is going on since when I make a notes in the story I seem to ignore them but when I write them another place is better at remembering the issues I raised. (no one ever said I was rational, not even me).

The current temp title is "The Border" since the story is of a place where fae and regular world interconnect.

Is hard a write a story when already has the idea and it isn't just 'flowing'. Harder still without a editor what tells me of a mistakes fast.

Thank you for reading a random babblings. Not approved by the association of Random Babbling Faeries, what hasn't read it yet.

Been having this idea for a while. Has rewrited the intro many times. I think I like this intro.

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hmm - reads like an intro to erotica. It isn't. :D